Aug 31st...Happy Birthday!

My Husband turned 40 today. What a day. I was busy preparing a day to bless him and invite his friends. The kids, Abi and Matt, were excited too. They were busy helping decorate. Finally the planning came together. We had a great day. Chris was blessed and loved seeing his friends. It was nice to get our friends and family together that we know but do not know each other, brings things into perspective.

I am blessed each day to have my family. Who else puts up with my "bad Hair days" and allows me the grace to mess up and to change. They truly see me at my lowest and highest. As I journey with my friends and family and let my "true" feelings show, I become more and more healed.

God is gracious to bring people into my life to reveal all the unhealed areas. Then I have the choice..let The Father minister to that need or become hardened. I am thankful for each day.
I am thankful for each wound, trail, misunderstanding, healing. I am thankful to Him who will use life's mis steps, mishaps, to bring His goodness and Love. When I submit to what He is doing, all things are used for good. Even the most preposterous, hurtful things, can be redeemed. HE is the GOD of Restoration. I believe in restoration, I am a restorer, my husband is a restorer, hence our company name Dry Bones Restorations. Breathing life to Dry Bones, things once dead, having new life, being fulling restored, not torn down and modernized, but restored.

God has promised me that if I join Him in what He is doing, That things will not only be healed, but better than they were before. Yeah!! I want some of that.

Father's Embrace

I had recently been in a difficult meeting. During the meeting my heart was hurt. Some days later my friends came to me, who were also at the meeting , to affirm their commitment to me, and to speak good things to me. We were driving in the car (and this lasted about 2 minutes). Well, those two minutes were very difficult for me. I was in my heart, saying move on to the next person, don't focus on me, what do I do, how can I get away....While this may sound weird I realized that I would have been more comfortable with correction, than edifying. Why? That was my question to the Father. I came to realize that although I thought I had dealt with my issues of being able to receive from people, (my orphan issues from my woundings) I was not at home in love. I came to realize that to receive criticism was more the norm for my life. To hear good things was a rarity. So I had closed off my heart to receiving, mainly because everything came at a price, so it was better to do myself, than to have the perpetual string attached that was pulled later at a convenient time. So I invite the Father in to that unhealed area. He is faithful. I also realize that much like the older brother in the prodigal father story, I too am not at "home" in love, or my Father's house. So this week has been a week of allowing pent up emotion to start to surface, my poor family, there will be much repenting this week!! I have been on the verge of anger or tears, wow, the Father is starting to break through. So I welcome the rain. I welcome the flood that tears down all structures. "Let it Rain!" "Because it is living water I desire" "Can't you hear my heart it is crying....Rain Down!!!"
I am learning to be a daughter. I have been working my whole life for words of affirmation and hopefully approval....They do not come.....So I give up, because it is not about what I do, but about who I am...Who He says I am.....And I am His Beloved.

For those that find me here. I am not a blogger...not enough time. You can best catch me on myspace or facebook.

myspace.com/melaniespahr
or on facebook not sure how you find me, but type in my name and ill come up.

Mel "Eowyn"